Do I have a "NOW" bestfriend? Wat abt my "OLD" bestfriend?
Today i went out with Nana...she was so sweet to ask me out. Thankz dear! We went to catch the movie - Dodgeball. It's so funny man & abit disgusting too! Haha....
This week's been busy for me. I had 3 mid-term tests & 1 presentation & I haven't been getting enough rest for the past few days. Tired tired tired...
Anyway...it'll be over soon & I'm so looking forward to getting rest!
I chatted with Cec online juz now. We were talking abt Cheryl being my bestfriend so I shld know most of her happenings. Apparently that isn't true! Cheryl...you know this better than I do rite? Well....Cec was defending Cheryl & that made me feel terrible coz as usual, no one understood my position, where I'm coming frm. They always have the impresson that I have something against Cheryl. Why? I don't, you know? It is she who doesnt wanna call me out, or talk to me abt what's going on with her life, but I do ask her how is she when I see her. Her reply will always be: "I'm okay, fine!, busy with sch tests..." She doesn't ask how I am....why do I even bother? Dun ask me.....I really dunno!
Since my "OLD" bestfriend have since slipped away in my life, who is then my "NEW" bestfriend? I dun think I have one now....
As I type this I'm thinking of the gd times and the bad I had with CheryL...and I tell you that I'm crying now coz I truly miss those times when we were so close, sharing stuffs - gossips, secrets etc., playing bball together, studying together, and going for service together...
These r the things we dun do together anymore, why CheryL?
Now...even if I know what's going on with your life, it wouldn't be frm you. Hearing abt the bad times you face, I dun feel gd abt it & I feel sorry that you have to face these tough times yourself. Yes and you r rite to have guessed that I was angry when I knew wat's going on with you. One thing for sure, CheryL, you've lost someone who would talk someone who would talk some sense into you, coz I'm nt gonna do tt anymore - you are so stubborn that you dun even listen no more. Why do you have bring yourself to that level so low that I'm shocked you've went? Have you no more respect for yourself, or yourself? Where's your pride? I thought you're so prideful that you wouldn't listen, so where's that pride of yours now? Is He that worth it that you have to degrade yourself to tt level?
Sorry for being this harsh...but I feel I had to let it out! As always...May The Lord Jesus Christ be with YOU!
